Growing up among very advanced and competitive musicians, it was easy to turn something like music, which is supposed to be an expression of human emotion, into a sport. A bloody sport. Like Mr. Daimler, many orchestra parents and kids saw being the best of the absolute importance, which baffles me. For example, what makes Joshua Bell a better violinist than Hilary Hahn or vice versa? Creating such bloodthirsty competition in something as subjective as the arts seems to be an absolute waste of time, energy, and talent.
But it doesn't stop there. Human preoccupation with being the best at everything seems to consume our culture. Constantly comparing ourselves through social media; fuming in jealously as you look at other's Facebook photos realizing that your Friday night wasn't nearly as fun as your friend whom you haven't even spoken to in five years. Though a healthy amount of competition drives the economy and technological advances, its control on our outlooks of life is viciously contagious and dangerous. Our obsession with being extraordinary and the "best" can ruin our ability to simply enjoy the pleasures of doing things for the sake of doing them. We attempt to prove to others how much greater our lives are than theirs. I am absolutely guilty of this. As a member of the social media generation, I thrive in self-importance and the idea of exhibiting the best of my life online. I act as my own editor, showing off the best of the best in order to demonstrate my superiority over others. This is absolutely ridiculous and quite honestly embarrassing, and yet, its endless.
We even then come into competition with our past selves. Being home alone a lot, I find myself looking back at old photos of myself and friends wishing I was as happy as I appear in the photos, fooling myself into believing that somehow I didn't have problems then. But I must address the fact that that is not true and there's never been a better time in my life than right now. Wasting the time I have now, young and relatively healthy, you know minus the lung tumor part, is silly and I vow to be more appreciative of what is at my expenditure. I have to start looking at having so much free time as an opportunity to grow and enjoy my favorite activities and spending time with family. So although I greatly disagree with Mr. Daimler's frankly petty view of life, I thank him for making me realize the importance of living today for the joy of today. So in that spirit, I vow to be less consumed with trying to be better than people, or appearing to be on Facebook and Instagram. There is no way for me or anyone else to measure the beauty a human life can create everyday and I vow to stop trying. Instead of being depressed over times past or times to come, I rejoice in the truth that every day of my life is the best of day of my life.
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